myaim
01-30-2008, 03:04 AM
How do i explain, i feel angry all the time, always tense.(when w/ her)
It was my first day at my new high school in Arizona, i knew one person but thats inconsequential because we had no classes together (srry Sublime). So there i was going to my last period of the day, great no service on my fone. I was sitting there and waiting for the day to end, but then i saw her. She was beautiful, her name was Paige. All of a sudden i wished this class would never end. We talked we laughed a bit, but never more. The year went by in a flash never to return. I was a sophomore finally! not. The summer went by quickly, who cares, there wasn't one day i didn't think about her. I had hoped i would have a class with her this year, and my dream came true YAY! once again not. so the first day of my sophomore year, knowing tons more people and actually having friends. first period went by quick but i had a feeling this year was gona suck in french, my teacher was an energetic noob. I swear she has like 100 cups of coffees in the morning. shes awake constantly running around the room making me tired just to watch. Second period, finally a fun class History, so i was walking down the hall looking for C234 or something like that, finally i found it and walked in. FUCK! she was there, Paige, just sitting there and smiling at me when i walked in. We talked about our summer and families we had spent time with. It was fun, its always easy to talk to her when theres something easy to talk about, great im falling for her... AGAIN! So there i was everyday of the semester thinking about constantly, winding up in my dreams and always there when you least expected. Then the new semester started after a fun holiday, i had a gf, not Paige but my neighbor, it lasted 2 days. I couldn't stand it, i liked her as a friend and nothing more, i had tried to distance my self from Paige... well that didn't work. Now there i was everyday in history making small talk and making excuses just to look into her eyes. Her eyes are brown, but not a normal brown, a light brown that went well with her smooth straight hair. I swear she was torturing me, she liked everything i did and more, we have so much in common. The dance, is February 3rd and i cnt pull myself up to asking her (not just to the dance but like bf/gf thing.), my friend telling me i have to. now all i feel is pain, anger, and tense all the time. constantly hurting and rarely smiling in her presence anymore. I have dealt with rejection before but this, if i get rejected my life will end, everything will become hell. I had been cheated on, loved, hated, every emotion possible people have felt towards me. a friend tells me to take it slow but its like i cant even feel my real kind self anymore untill im with her. in the end i want to ask her out, but i cnt bring myself to it, or it doesnt come out when im talking to her, when she walks away for class i fell so retarded for not asking.
u can laugh, but ya, thats it.
It was my first day at my new high school in Arizona, i knew one person but thats inconsequential because we had no classes together (srry Sublime). So there i was going to my last period of the day, great no service on my fone. I was sitting there and waiting for the day to end, but then i saw her. She was beautiful, her name was Paige. All of a sudden i wished this class would never end. We talked we laughed a bit, but never more. The year went by in a flash never to return. I was a sophomore finally! not. The summer went by quickly, who cares, there wasn't one day i didn't think about her. I had hoped i would have a class with her this year, and my dream came true YAY! once again not. so the first day of my sophomore year, knowing tons more people and actually having friends. first period went by quick but i had a feeling this year was gona suck in french, my teacher was an energetic noob. I swear she has like 100 cups of coffees in the morning. shes awake constantly running around the room making me tired just to watch. Second period, finally a fun class History, so i was walking down the hall looking for C234 or something like that, finally i found it and walked in. FUCK! she was there, Paige, just sitting there and smiling at me when i walked in. We talked about our summer and families we had spent time with. It was fun, its always easy to talk to her when theres something easy to talk about, great im falling for her... AGAIN! So there i was everyday of the semester thinking about constantly, winding up in my dreams and always there when you least expected. Then the new semester started after a fun holiday, i had a gf, not Paige but my neighbor, it lasted 2 days. I couldn't stand it, i liked her as a friend and nothing more, i had tried to distance my self from Paige... well that didn't work. Now there i was everyday in history making small talk and making excuses just to look into her eyes. Her eyes are brown, but not a normal brown, a light brown that went well with her smooth straight hair. I swear she was torturing me, she liked everything i did and more, we have so much in common. The dance, is February 3rd and i cnt pull myself up to asking her (not just to the dance but like bf/gf thing.), my friend telling me i have to. now all i feel is pain, anger, and tense all the time. constantly hurting and rarely smiling in her presence anymore. I have dealt with rejection before but this, if i get rejected my life will end, everything will become hell. I had been cheated on, loved, hated, every emotion possible people have felt towards me. a friend tells me to take it slow but its like i cant even feel my real kind self anymore untill im with her. in the end i want to ask her out, but i cnt bring myself to it, or it doesnt come out when im talking to her, when she walks away for class i fell so retarded for not asking.
u can laugh, but ya, thats it.